My computer is privy to the most embarrassing side of me.

Oh, no.

What's she doing?

Is she... Yup. Yup, she is. She's opening one of her favorite fanfics, and it's a sad one.

Hoo, boy, we're gonna be in for a bumpy ride. Buckle up, fellas, here it comes.

Alright, let's see here... she's read this one several times, but every time she reads it it wounds her. I wonder if she's a masochist for this sort of thing. OTPs make a person do crazy things.

OK, well, at least this one starts out pleasantly enough. Everything's chill, everything's happy, and hopes are high on the horizon. Alright. She's still smiling, giving the occasional coo of 'babies'. Things are looking good.
It's the beginning of the end, though. After this chapter, it all starts heading downhill. Her face falls as she clicks the next chapter. Yeah. She knows what's coming.

Mm-hmm, called it. Things are starting to fall to pieces. The full heartbreak hasn't happened yet, though. Cracks are starting to spread, the relationship is splintering, and there's plenty of guilt and shame going on. She's still smiling some, though, because this dialogue is really great and funny even if it is just a spot of brightness in the dark depths of relationship turmoil, but there's a certain pain within her grin. She's well aware of the incoming heartbreak.

Next chapter.

What an emotional roller coaster. Hope's picking back up, things might be okay, love may conquer all - she's whining 'babies, babies, babies, oh, my God, my babies, my precious precious babies', this is a good sign - except...

It's over.

It's all over.

She's wailing and banging her fist on the desk. 'NOOOOOOO DARLINGS DARLING BABIES NRGOAUSNGOUSOTSDFSOGUSDF'

This is just the response I predicted. It's what happens every time.

She's messaging her friends now, whimpering about how good the fic was but at the same time how painful it was. She continues to whisper 'babies' to herself every now and then, clutching her face and her head and searching for something firm and safe to hold on to.

She trusted that fic.

She trusted her babies to end up together and happy in the end, and that fic shattered her trust.

Nothing is safe anymore.

The woes of having an angsty OTP.

(WOW SO THIS WAS PRETTY MUCH THE STUPIDEST AND MOST TERRIBLE THING I'VE EVER WRITTEN I'M SORRY IF YOU READ THIS)