Whoever said Junior Year was the hardest in all four years of high school was right. I most definitely should have studied more.
I can't say I've changed much since the beginning of this school year. But I've put myself out there a lot this year. More than any other year before. I still don't like talking in public. I didn't magically become a social butterfly. But this year I've done a 5 minute speech in front of my peers, I've attempted to achieve leadership positions (something I never would have done last year - although I can't say I've achieved any positions at all), and I've started from scratch on my swimming career.
There's a whole list of things I wished I could have done differently this year, but I don't have the time nor the patience to type it all out. What I would loved to do this year was get over my fear of putting myself out in the crowd and not be afraid of being judged. I am constantly aware of any judging looks or whispers behind my back and it's been keeping me from reaching my full potential.
This summer I'll be driving to Seattle and then to Yellowstone National Park where I will hopefully, by some miracle, find something that will boost my confidence level. And I will also most likely start on my mentoring thing. Of course it would be nice if I got a job, finished all my summer homework with plenty of time to spare, received all 5s on my AP tests, and got my driver's license this summer. I'm willing to take it all.
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