Im not Sure whats going on but i m hungry and upset

typing casually because its easier to talk about feelings when youre not making your writing all stiff and formal sounding (be ready for a lot of 'idks' because those seem to negate some of the stupidity of what you might be saying) (talking about feelings kind of sucks you all)

well
idk (off to a great start here we go kids)
to compare junior year to sophomore year this year has been both a lot worse and a bit better in some ways? sophomore year was a lot of fun full of HAPPINESS and GREAT TIMES and honestly - without getting into the murky details - this year... hasnt been
but i guess there have been some high points
i think i know a lot more about myself this year than i did last year
and safe to say my art and writing have improved a lot (though theyre certainly nowhere near where i want them to be but hey thats life)
ugh i dont know theres a lot of stuff i could rant about in here but i dont really want to?? okay well i guess i WANT to but i dont think i should idk idk feelings UGH

im just gonna talk about measly lame surface level things

i finally learned how to draw decent looking doodle bodies frick yes hahahaha
anatomical realism still scares the piss outta me though so i dont expect ill be drawing anything without noodle limbs anytime soon
but hey i like my noodle limbs style of drawing
its cute in a lazy kind of way

i wish i had worked harder in calculus
jfc do i wish i had worked harder in calculus

i also wish i had gotten more sleep but idk if that would have helped anything

im also proud of myself for getting a kickin new wardrobe (still under construction, sadly, but its all in the works) because HELL YES, FEELING GOOD ABOUT YOUR FASHION!!! ITS A GREAT SENSATION!!!!!!!!!! I REALLY ENJOY IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i really dont want to go back to work this summer because the job i had last summer sucked and i never ever wanna go back i just want to travel places eat yummy food sleep a lot and read homestuck fanfics

senior year i just hope i can get shit together w/ regards to my mentoring project because oh jeez hahaha actually having STRUCTURED WRITING TIME??? its intimidating man ive never done anything like that but i hope i can make things work and actually make a book that im proud of (heres to hoping the topic isnt so intimate and personal that im too scared to showcase it)

idk

i kind of got off topic w/ regards to the whole evaluating your junior year thing

to borrow the rating scale from gamebro magazine (featured in homestuck bahahahaha shoot me)

id give junior year 2 out of 5 hats

now if youll excuse me im gonna try to ignore the train wreck that my own life has become and weep over striders some more (because thats all i ever do)

(jesus h christ)