Fears - storms
Annoyances - willful ignorance
Accomplishments - academic accolades
Confusions - reading people
Sorrows - inadequacy
Dreams - marriage/family (in due time)
Idiosyncrasies - obsessive knowledge-seeking
Risks - nothing i'd like to share with the class
Beloved Possessions, Now and Then - relationships (now), rock collection (then)
Problems - argumentative
I am the worst kind of know-it-all. I am the kind of person who MUST know it all. There is no option for saying "I don't care" and moving on. And there certainly is not an exception for that which does not have an objective truth. In my twisted little mind there is no such thing as subjectivity. I or anybody else can say there is all they want, but at the end of the day I'm just going to end up functioning like there's a right answer to everything. And the worst part is, once I think I have the answer, you'll have a hell of a time convincing me I don't. Because it's so hard to say I was wrong, and you were right. Especially when as far as I can see you really ARE wrong.
And if you're wrong don't think I won't let you know. Oh boy, will you know. You will hear about it and until you know it you won't hear the end of it. There's zero tolerance for wrongness in my world. There's no such thing as "not mattering" here. No matter the size of the offense, if you're wrong you're wrong, and you will be corrected.
And if I don't know something, well that just won't do. No, something has to be done about that. So I'll dig at the truth like a starving wretch who thinks he's found some little spot of oasis in the desert. I've gotten better about how obvious I am with it, but trust me, if you've got information I don't, you can bet I'll be coveting it. If I feel like everyone else knows something I don't, I'll be furious. There's a conspiracy, of course. Everyone simply wants to keep me out of the loop. Everyone must be against me. Well, screw you too.
And the worst part is, if anyone else acted like I do, they'd be despicable. I wouldn't want anything to do with this annoying, entitled little pest who's so convinced he's right. And honestly, I don't know why anyone else would either.
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