Dreamery

Letting Myself Down
Hypocrisy (My own), False Preconceptions
Knowledge of myself
The Future, Balance
Anachronistic Birth
Dreams of Honesty and Humble Knowledge
Awkwardness
Urban Exploration
Then Rocks and Trinkets, now Books
Lack of Balance

     I do have to saw that my dreams for the future have been perverted by my experience and things I've been exposed to in my life, but this is the way that all men find themselves when faced with the inevitable rushing forth of the world. Dreams in general are a fickle thing, over time one that seemed so dire may be replaced by some new and vibrant idea. Dreams are separate from goals but the very basis for those goals. Many I know have dreams of grandeur or great success, fiscal or otherwise, but I require neither the respect of others nor the Wealth of man. Through my reading and experience I have come to value more and more the simplicity and humility that can be found in life if you know where too look. At the age of forty five I hope to move to Canada and build a rough cabin in the woods, utilities only a brook and a wood-stove; Spend my days reading and setting out food for the jays and mice, smoking an old sea-captain's pipe and tending a small orchard. To live as man was intended is how I wish to live out my Last days.
     In the meantime I dream of Going to college for maybe eight years, then a technical school to learn trades, the universal employment opportunity. I dream of building a mobile home and travelling around the country, then the continent, then the hemisphere, never working or living in one place for more than a few months at a time. Working hard with my hands by day and reclining to Tolstoy and a milk-crate of records in the evenings, I Dream of  Balance. Frugal and honest living, reward of an honest craft and a betterment of intellectual worth going hand in hand in hand. Then with a modest amount of money set aside from everything I've ever made, I hope to travel abroad, see the post-soviet bloc in all its beautiful decay, and the ancient shrines of Japan and Siam. I'm not a country-jumper, like so many kids I know my age. I'm not so naive as to deny The United States its worth, its wealth in land and culture. I only wish to see the world outside once I have attained mastery of my own. I dream to accumulate unsurpassed amounts of wealth of the soul and then retire to the woods to let death take me, Content with a life well lived.