Personal Prompts

1. Is lying something you do often? (And be honest about it)
2. What sort of person do you want to be? (And I'm not just talking about jobs and majors but what KIND OF PERSON do you want to be?)
3. What is normal?

Prompt #1

Lying today is defined in so many ways today. It used to just be if you didn't tell the truth or you withheld the truth then you were lying. Now it's more like it's okay to lie if it's for a good cause (whatever a good cause is) and if the other person deserved it, or anything else along those lines. I wasn't trying to be critical or high & mighty when I thought of this prompt but I actually think about this a lot: do I lie?

I'm not perfect. Let's be honest - nobody is. But when it comes to lying I have the right to say, "no I don't lie often." And when I do (yes I said "when" and not "if." I told you I'm not perfect) I literally feel like the world is closing in on me and my conscience is about to rip me apart. 

 I stayed too late at a friends house one time and forgot to keep my phone with me. My mom got worried, and then mad, and then furious. When she picked me up and she asked me if I was really only working on school work. I lied through my teeth and said yes. The next morning, every time I got within 10 feet of my mom it felt like a boulder was smashing the air out of my lungs. You can guess what happened - I told her the truth. I was goofing off. Homework was the farthest thing on my mind. Just telling her what really happened made me feel 110 times better. 

People who read this probably think, "she's such a goody-two-shoes" or "why doesn't she live a little?" The thing is, lying is a big deal to me. To some people it's okay if it's a little white lie. To me, that little lie is just getting me one step closer to making my conscience numb to the fact that I'm breaking my morals. Yeah that makes me look like the most didactic girl in the world and a lot of people don' t like that. It's not the most pleasant feeling in the world to be viewed in that way, but to me my priority isn't how many friends I have. The more important thing is sticking to what I believe is right or wrong no matter how small or big it is.