#1) Live

In life or in personality inventories (don't judge. personality tests are my favorite thing ever), when I come to the question "Do you have trouble making decisions?" I initially answer no, and then I feel the urge to say yes, but in the next moment I want to say no again, so there I sit for a good 30 seconds, oscillating between no and yes, thinking of all the times I have had to make decisions. The irony is not lost on me, making the answer obviously no. I offer this long, pointless story as an explanation of sorts for why my answers to the following three questions contain a million things. Because I can't choose just one. 

High School- Survive with humor and sanity in tact. I would like to emerge from the cinder-block hell with a better understanding of myself and what I want to spend my finite time on earth doing. I often feel that I have little to show for my time in high school, but this is okay, as long as my time spent over the last four years has given me insight into myself and my passions.

College- My number one for this category would most likely be considered crude and inappropriate for a school blog. Kidding, of course. not really. So I will tell you my number two item on my bucket list. I have never been extremely involved in artistic expression but in the past few years a desire to create has arisen in me and I want to do some playing around with arts of different mediums and see if there exists in me any possibility to create beauty. If  I end up creating things that even a toddler would be ashamed of,  I would then like to find what I can devote my life to in order to make a difference in lives of other people. Oh, and I want to vote for Hillary Clinton for President, although that is slightly out of my hands.

Death- My items for high school and college are extremely vague because I find it dangerous to plan the details of ones life so rigidly that you miss out on the side attractions that pop up along the way. However, there are a number of things that I want to have accomplished before I die. I want to fall in love with someone so deeply that it hurts to be away from them (Hi, my name is Josh and I am a hopeless romantic.(I blame Disney. I still can't decide if  I will let my kids watch the princess movies when they are young and impressionable.)) Anyway. I want to travel around this beautiful country of America and see the rest of the world as well. I want to have a positive impact on the world, although I have no idea how that might  look like. Ultimately, I want to be able to look back on my life and know that I sure as hell did not waste it. 

*did I even answer the prompt? idk. But I really dont have the time to care. Its 11:35 and i am so drunk (tired) that the computer looks like it is sinking into my table. oh well. night


**Micheal Summer I just read your post and I am stealing one of your bucket list thingys. Never retire. Whether or not I do one profession forever is unimportant, but I do not want to retire at 62 and sit on my ass watching reruns of honey boo boo eating cheetohs until I finally keel over at 75. I'll be damned if I go out without a fight and that fight shall include working passionately on something, so passionately that I will need to be buried with my work in the event that consciousness remains after death, so that I can continue to work.--However, I may re-examine this sentiment when I reach 62 and am dog tired.


okay. im done.